So, after many strange events that continue to occur within my life I have decided to start a blog. So let me begin with was has currently got me wigged out. My father called last week to inform me that my step-brother was murdered by his wife. For the full story go to http://www.dailybulletin.com/ci_9101829. Now, I haven't had the best relationship with my father and we have a relationship that is well, unhealthy. So hearing from him last week was unexpected. Anyways, he has called me daily since finding out this awful news to keep me up to date and to invite me to the funeral on Wednesday. Not 5 minutes after our last conversation of him inviting me, he calls to tell me that due to our unresolved problems I am uninvited and that I should respect his wishes and not attend. WTF...why even call me, seriously. I keep saying to myself ok, this is it, it has to end. This relationship is unhealthy one sided and complete bullshit. So, this event can only help me to move on and be done with it. I pray for peace of mind and the ability to remember he is not going to change, he is not ready for change, and not even a daughter who truly wants to be loved by her father will make that happen.
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It's unfortunate that that's the way it is, but just remember that you have family and friends that do love you, like, y'know...me.
He is such a winner. Seriously, it is time to let this relationship go. Again. It's like, you can't keep throwing yourself out there to be vulnerable to him and his issues. I don't think he is ever going to change.
I'm really sorry to hear about your step brother. :(
Love you! Miss you!
Welcome to the blogosphere!...and what a way to start, but it's good to let the pressure out. Sorry about your step brother but you were there when something similar happened to me and I know the kind of conflicting feelings one gets. Love the people that reciprocate and fuck everyone else, simple as that. It's those who take a little time out of their own lives to see what your up too, no matter how insignificant, those are the ones you should be worried about how they feel. It's scary sometimes how simple life truly is and how complicated we tend to make it. Keep on bloggin' (unlike someone I know....ROBERT!)
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